I mentioned last week that I was finally finding some good news from the dating site I'm on. I've found a match! She seems really nice, and she's got a great smile. I think she's cute. She really fits everything that I've asked for in a match on my profile. I just need to make sure that what I've asked for is what I actually want. Yeah, I know, I'm being too picky now.
We've been getting along great so far. Our email exchanges have been full of information about each other, and we're asking lots of questions and providing answers. She said, though, that she prefers sharing more in person, to see whether there's a spark and chemistry. I don't have any problem with that.... I'm just not as anxious to rush into anything.
I think I'm still stuck in the eHarmony-style of communicating, where you go back and forth, step by step, through a process before you ever meet. Whereas with match, you go at whatever pace you want. So I've been content to get to know her through communicating via email. I'm a writer first, and since it has been a little while since my last date, I'm a little apprehensive about meeting in person, but I truly am not dragging my feet. She is VERY anxious to meet me, however. She made that clear in an email this evening. She seems very much like she knows what she wants. She was polite about it, but now the pressure is on. I'm worried her expectations may be too high.
I'm just an average guy. My faith is very important to me. My daughter is very important to me. I've got a lot of emotional baggage, too. Stress from work has made a mess of me, and I still struggle with bouts of depression and grief. I'm not in the best of shape, physically. I've never felt older (except that I get that I am older than I've ever been right now). I worry about bringing that kind of stuff with me into a relationship.
Maybe that's my problem. I know that the longer I go without meeting her, the more chance I'll find something "wrong" with her. I need to move forward sooner than later. I've still got a lot of questions, though.
I am attracted to her. She is a Christian. She appears to be a person of high character and confidence. She is an extrovert. Though not a sports fan, she says she can put up with my "passionate fanaticism". She seems very happy with herself and with her life, though she appears to be marriage minded. I've laid it all out on the table for her to see, and she hasn't blinked yet. So I'm likely overreacting. I'm worried she may actually like me.
So things are moving along. I'm still getting pinged on the site by women who do not come close to fitting my profile, including one who wrote to me a few weeks ago, and after I turned her down, proceeded to write me again the other day. I think she forgot we've already been through this. My membership only has another 2 months, then I'm going to quit. Six months is a long time to be a member without a date, though if it works out with the current prospect, then it will be worth it.
Stay tuned! I'm sure there's more to come....
Have a great week ahead, everyone!