The rumors of my demise are greatly exaggerated, even despite how much I may have felt like I was dying over the past month. I didn't realize just how much pneumonia was going to knock me off my feet, but here I am in week 4 of my recovery. Coughing fits aside, I guess there are some benefits to doing just about nothing. I have been working regularly recently, so I really haven't done nothing, but it sure feels like it, and I've really enjoyed the rest. Daughter Melody came down with a bad cough, too, in the past week, though, so we're enjoying the stereo sounds of phlegm. I think we might have a hit on our hands.
With all of the sitting around I've been doing, you might think there would be an uptick in the amount of posting on this site, but, frankly, I've had no desire to write. I've started almost a dozen posts, but most ended up as one-paragraph drafts, if they weren't just deleted. I may expand and finish some of them at some point, but I just haven't felt like writing. I hesitate to call it writer's block, though it's close. I just haven't felt like writing.
I liken this to a musician who goes through a listening phase in his or her development. I went through this in college. I had been playing my clarinet and sax pretty much non-stop for almost 9 years when I decided to break from it. I went through a period a immense growth listening to a lot of music I hadn't heard before, for almost a year. When I got back to playing again, it was as a much more mature musician, but I also found less opportunities to play, and eventually I stopped completely.
I did much the same thing with my acting. I loved acting when I discovered it late in high school, and through my church drama program, I had an outlet. However, as things progressed, I ended up more on the production side, and I preferred the smaller roles, which got me on and off the stage fairly quickly and right back to the behind-the-scenes stuff. By the time my wife and I took over the drama program at our church, we were writing and directing as a team, and with my wife's obvious natural acting skills, I decided I liked being behind the curtain and camera and began directing exclusively. I loved acting with my wife, but not so much without her. I also liked putting everything together, and as a director, you have a lot of power to do so. I enjoyed that. And now I'm not acting or directing. Lack of opportunity led to the end of that.
I'm not saying I'll stop writing completely, but I guess it's a possibility. I certainly wouldn't be the first blogger to do so. I'll just consider this a phase for now, and I'll just say thank you for continuing to support me. I've got a lot of stories to tell, that's for sure. They just haven't come out of me at the frequency I'm used to.
Enjoy your weekend, everyone!
Hope you and your daughter get better soon, Eric.ReplyDelete